And all of a sudden, there it is again.
The life vibrating through my veins.
The eternal force bringing me back home.Creation itself is filling my lungs.
I am breathing clarity.
Inspiration is flooding my heart.Ideas are sprouting like leaflets.
Compassion is unleashing my chest.
Haaaaaaaaaa……. There she is again. My friend, freedom.
Writing Experiment
Observations of 2021
I wasn’t planning on writing an “end of the year”-post. (I was planning on writing a whole bunch of other stuff of course – as always:)
But there is some plain truth revealing itself to me over and over again in the recent days.
It is this crystal clear clarity – the clarity of a freezing cold, sunny winter morning:
Healing occurs – but “the work” doesn’t end.
Awareness opens up new doors. It brings forth new realms, new lessons to discover…
The lesson is not the learning. It is never the learning.
The lesson is the experience.
This year ends as it began – with a bucket full of wisdom.
My main observations of 2021 that hopefully serve me well in 2022:
- Time passes – if I do anything about it or not.
- I get wiser – if I want it or not. 😉
- Everything changes – if I want it or not. When I said “I am the change” at the beginning of this year, it was true because I am “the whole ocean in one drop” (Rumi), but still there is a whole other ocean out there…. (With other words: The whole ocean is still vast and unknown.)
- NOTHING is like it seems! I wish everybody would understand this….
- And (surprise, surprise): I can’t predict the future – neither can I control the outcome.
What can I do?
I can embrace the human experience (my newest discovery).
I can give birth to every moment, to my own creation, to connection, to myself (the old and the new)….
I can meet my intuition halfway – in stillness. And the stillness is not to be found anywhere else but “within myself”.
This is all nothing new. I wrote about all this from day one of this writing experiment called “growthbuddy”.
And still: This is what fills me with joy. Writing this down here lets my heart sigh, so I will keep going. And this time one thing is for sure: I CAN’T WAIT!!
I am beyond excited to greet 2022. Also I am beyond excited – and honored – to finish this year with a little bit more peace and acceptance within myself. And hey: This is more than I could have ever asked for.
Thank you life for always meeting me where I am at 😉
Collective Shadow Work, The Fear of Change and The Paradox of “Surrender”
Change is here. Change is now. By now most of us seem to agree on this: Change is inevitable.
But how do we proceed on our journey?
The fear of change is creating a huge shadow overcasting the sky of opportunity.
It is our turn to step up and step right into this fog. Now is the time to shine, fellow lightworkers. Don’t be scared of this huge wall of darkness in front of you. It is only energy and you are able to transform it.
Give in and surrender to your feelings. This is how you let the wall dissolve. This is collective shadow work. Allow your cells to transmute.
Open up. Loose grip. Bow down. Give in, soul.
Devote yourself to the truth.
Melt into the moment. Accept the challenge that is being presented right in front of you.
Look through the veil. Open yourself up and step into reality.
Solve the problems that you are facing with the means that you have instead of blaming, blaming, blaming… the circumstances or everyone else who appears to be incapable of solving your problems, because they are your problems and not theirs.
You have the power to solve those problems if you are willing to see the resources you are given.
What are you fighting for? And what are you revolting?
Let go of your comfort and then let go of your discomfort. As simple as that.
“The great surrendering” is here. We have the chance to come back to our senses.
Confusion leads to expansion if we let it.
Chaos is the motor of our progress.
Challenge is the driving force of the evolution of consciousness.
Fear is our magical tool.
Why?
Fear vanishes the ego. Let it in.
Fear forces us to dive into the unknown.
The ego can’t persist and it will succumb to unity.
This is our unique opportunity to come back to life.
Thinking About Writing
Oh my goodness. Am I really sitting here thinking about writing?
Am I thinking about doing that thing that fills me with joy? This is what I sometimes call “dreaming about the destination”.
I love writing it all out. The raw unfiltered writing. I love writing down the finishing lines – typing “this perfect ending”.
But how many times does the doubt creep in? How many times do I choose diversion?
“What if I have nothing to say?”
Well, what if I’d reverse that question? “What if I have something to say?!”
Start. Now.