Okay life – let’s do this.
Instead of playing hide and seek I’m accepting your challenges.
Instead of distracting myself I’m connecting with your energy as often as I can.
In a state of meditation I am minding my steps, my words and my actions.
But without hesitation I am acting out of consciousness instead of “re”-acting out of fear.
Yes, I throw myself out there. Out of the blue into the deep end.
The blur of my mind will vanish.
Life – I’m taking you in. I let you flow like the waves in the ocean and the clouds in the sky.
You won’t scare me anymore, because you gave me the power.
When I hit rock bottom you gonna lift me up again.
I’m making the most of it – sleepless nights, confusion and heartaches won’t drag me down.
No, I trust you one hundred percent.
Living life to the fullest means a life full of gratitude, full of trust and appreciation.
I commit life not suicide.
Sometimes there are these moments that only belong to me.
All of a sudden a burst of energy fills my chest.
A warm smile from the interior arises.
It is one of these moments, when everything feels right.
Life becomes bearable again. All the negativity vanishes in exhilaration.
Absence turns into awareness.
I arrive in the present moment while lifting off into the future of my own history.
Sometimes all we see are blind ends.
Instead of checking the map, we are dreaming about the destination.
Instead of adjusting our route, we remain paralyzed.
Our map is spaciously dimensioned for us.
Even if the tracks seem alarmingly narrow at times, all that is narrow is our mind.
We tip-toe in dread and doubt, but we truly wander in awe and admiration.
Drop the package.
Tie your shoes.
Free your mind.
And keep walking – light-heartedly, not heavy-headedly.
You are allowed to struggle.
You are allowed to scream.
You are allowed to cry.
But you are never allowed to give up.
Communicate with yourself. And then you will understand everything better.
Lead weights are pulling my limbs down to the core.
Everything falls into place.
Gravity is contracting me softly.
My body is merging with the ground.
Unable to move, but truly alive I become one.
Never miss an opportunity to grow.
Always absorb information, listen carefully and learn.
Failure is painful, but it is crucial for your success.
You never stop growing as long as you don’t resign.
My perfectionism disables my productivity – the fear of failure makes me powerless. Paralyzed I scrape around – unable to get started.
When decision making becomes a torture every idea turns into a burden.
When opportunities become obstacles, openness closes doors.
I don’t see the wood for all the trees, because my senses are occupied by self-consciousness.
There is no way forward – as long as I don’t “make way”. Unfortunately nobody can help me with this.
Deep inside of me I know that I have to push through. Deep inside of me there is wisdom beyond that pain. The pain that is part of humanization. The pain that demands to be felt.
But from time to time and often enough I ask myself: Why? Why do I ask all these questions without answers?
Yes, I’m struggling.
Yes, I’m lonely at times.
Yes, I don’t know, where I’m going.
But at least I’m free.
Red eyes – blinded.
Faces like wax.
Lips pressed to a pale line enclosing fears.
Back bended dragging a heritage.
Distracted by diversion we are sliding into non-existence.
Soul-destroying lovelessness is soaking up our energy.
Iced-hearted we are burning out – collectively.