Change Of Thinking

by Uli on Transformation Inventory, Writing Experiment

Action as a Portal

Can you imagine your action as a portal into a whole new dimension?
Can you witness every step as an opening of a new door?
Can you see how you are creating a whole new world that no one has ever seen before?
Can you honor yourself for being the creator of your life?

Every action is a leap into the unknown.
How can you be attached to the outcome?

Energy is the invisible thread weaving your intentions into reality.

Your actions move you. And they move the people around you.

You are the opening factor.

Your actions open portals to infinity.

 
by Uli on Transformation Inventory

Thoughts on Navigating Ego Death, “The Path” and Spiritual Awakening

Okay. It’s time for some stream of consciousness – from the current of my experience.

This came through after conversing with many colleagues and friends (old and new ones) over these past couple of weeks… It’s been wild!

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Let’s talk about ego death and spiritual awakening:

How about coming back from spiritual awakening?

What do I mean by that?

Spiritual awakening can lift us. It can crack us open. It can move us. And sometimes it moves us far from reality.

Many of you will argue: There is not one reality!

I agree and I don’t agree – depending on the perspective I choose to look from.

What is reality in the context I’m talking about?

In my perception reality is rooted in earth and thus rooted in every being on the planet, because we are made of this earth.

If we neglect our offspring, I would argue: We are not walking the path! Why? Because the path is within our substance. The path is within.

Do I practice escapism or am I going deeper?

This has been a question I kept pondering for a long long time (probably for too long by now).

Am I running away? Am I avoiding life?

Or am I digging deeper?

At this point in time I know: Expansion doesn’t happen one-directional! I’m not the one to judge if I’m on track by evaluating the distance I have passed or the goals I have reached or not reached.

Awakening happens multi-directional.

So, there is no spiritual awakening in one area of my life and a “staying asleep” in the other.

That’s what makes it so hard at times and that what makes it seem like “being stuck”.

There might be aspects that are not conscious, yes, but surely all my being is shook by awakening.

It happens everywhere, literally in every cell – and surely in every situation I’m facing.

Every situation is an invitation, a tool or a lesson on this journey of awakening…

There is no “right” awakening. There is only awakening.

I bypass the moment in time, when I tell myself: “I just have to find my tribe now.”; “If I’d just do the work I love…”; “If I only had this partner…”; “If I only had the answer….”; “I just have to live my purpose” – and then I’m going to be fine…

No. That’s not how it works.

To use the words of author David Whyte: “How do you know you are on the path?” The answer is: “When there is no path!”

This is how you know: The path disappears!

As long as there is a sense of a path, the path is an illusion.

It sounds complicated but it is dead-simple: If there is no path, the path is everywhere.

And it’s meeting our ego with RESISTANCE.

As long as we are avoiding the resistance, we will not expand.

How about loving ourselves in that resistance?
How about observing the resistance?
What is there?! Is there really something there or are we making it up?

Going with the flow is amazing but how about making a difference in this world? How about walking hand in hand with the resistance on this planet?

A lot is being said about spiritual awakening.
A lot is being said about rainbows and unicorns.

Not enough is being said about, what can be considered as the shadow side of spiritual awakening. The dark side. The pain of transfiguration.

We can transcend and transmute but we can’t choose “the fun road”.

The work begins where comfort ends.

I don’t say there will never be comfort again, but actually, this is what I do think. There is no such thing as comfort.

It is uncomfortable to watch the deterioration of human kind while being attached to our own identity.

Nevertheless: We can’t fake ourselves into detachment!

I’m not sure if I’m getting this clear here. But I do my very best, because I am facing it first hand within my internal struggle to meet everyone as equals.

To witness all as part of the all and not as a crooked interpretation of my identity. The story of victim-mentality can only be transmuted by surrenderance.

We got to love it.

We are guided even when we are not guided.

It sounds paradoxical: We got to whole-heartedly accept it, be with it and then we will be able to rewire and rewrite the story of humanity.

Do we get anything in return? Hell no!
Do we win the lottery? NO!
Do we get rich? I don’t think that’s the matter.

Waking up is hard. It’s the hardest thing we can experience on this earth and it’s also the most rewarding thing.

The loss of identity does not go hand in hand with ‘cultural success’. Our idea of success has nothing to do with awakening. And that’s the difficult part. We might wake up and all of a sudden we have to find a way to speak to our co-workers, our clients or our boss…

It can be challenging!

The question that arose for me: How can I meet my fellow human beings with respect? How can I embrace the human experience?

The answer is by meeting my own self in my resistance.

“This is the perfect moment to love yourself.”

A valued friend shared her practice with me. The practice of loving myself at every moment.

In guilt, shame and anger. Even in emptiness there is love. There is no loveless emotion and where there is love there is acceptance.

 
by Uli on Uncategorized, Writing Experiment

Questioning Facts

This is a thought experiment. It’s meant to question, not to educate.

So, all information you work with is research-based?
Has it ever crossed your mind that this might be limiting you?

Your loyalty to facts might be limiting your thought process, your intuition, I’d say your reason…. Why?

Because you are thinking within the barriers of other people’s thoughts…

What if the breakthrough lies in the unconfirmed?
What if innovation is what emerges from the unverified?
What if the unseen holds the key to true novelty?
What if the solution is not black or white, but somewhere in between?
What if the unheard-of is the long-awaited answer to questions we’ve been asking for centuries?

Has it ever crossed your mind that your devotion to facts is what’s holding you back – because you can’t know them all?

This is the human predicament.

We think we can know it all, and yet our so-called reasoning is shaped by lenses we didn’t choose. Our perception of reality is based on a vision that’s pre-conceived by conformed lenses.

What might happen if we looked beyond them?

 
by Uli on Rough Diamonds

Change is Imperative

Change is the single only constant in life.
Adaptation is the norm.
It is crucial for our survival to adapt.
Control is a toxic illusion we fall for.
It’s counter-intuitive because it suffocates our ability to innovate.
If we resist change, we are suppressing an important survival mechanism.

 
by Uli on Micro Habit Challenge, Transformation Inventory

My Inner Critic Lives in The Future

My inner critic lives in the future.

I can’t see him here.

Recently I’ve finished my inner critic micro habit challenge and I still owe you (and me) a conclusion.

How can I continue the conversation with my critic in a constructive way? This was kind of the question that arose towards the end of the challenge a week ago.

The short answer: There is no such thing like a ‘constructive conversation’ with my inner critic, because the critical voice is not productive by any means.

What has happened since then?

Honestly, this past week has been a crazy ride. Now that I’m typing I want to use the time to sum up what’s happening, because I witness that this week has been big for a lot of us.

To me it feels like a huge energy wave is rolling over us all – business closures, new beginnings, re-inventions, death and rebirth. This seems to be the pattern for a lot of us right now – if we are aware of it or not.

I’m sure, whoever is reading this, agrees: We live in wild times right now.

So, apparently I had started the inner critic challenge at a crucial point in my personal and professional development. I can witness a huge shift in consciousness within myself and others – and this seems to reflect in the material world.

More details about that will be revealed over time and most likely, in one way or another be shared on this blog.

All of a sudden – I’d say exhilarating – possibilities come floating (that’s the word that comes up – again) into my life.

Again, I’m learning that things do fall into place if I let them. I have worked freakin’ hard over these past couple of months – that’s partly what made me start the challenge, because I realized that my inner critic is not really, mmmh, let’s say… productive?!

And yes… Now I know: My inner critic is not here to be productive. He is here to warn me – and, to be honest, that’s an euphemism!

Actually I can’t really find any use of the inner critic apart from criticizing ‘unfoundedly’.

As I mentioned in my previous post: The critical voice doesn’t live in the present moment.

If I want to be the best version of myself, I better be present now. That’s where the magic happens.

So, what could be a takeaway from this challenge?

Raising awareness for the internal voices has helped me to see my own potential and my own value much clearer.

My critic doesn’t appear to me like someone to have constructive conversations with. It’s more like an invisible twin, a voice that immediately mutes as soon as I center myself.

Also: The critic does not really leave room for play. That’s something I identified as part of my mission on this earth. To play, spread lightness and eliminate pain.

So, all I can do is to cultivate more awareness and a nurturing environment for my ‘productive’ self, which is the spark of energy that lives in my physical body.

 
by Uli on Transformation Inventory

Perfect Imperfection

By nature, life is imperfect.

So, what makes us expect our lives to be perfect?

Why are we giving ourselves such a hard time “trying to be perfect”?

We try to find “the perfect solution” – for problems we don’t even fully understand.
We want the perfect body, the perfect mind, the perfect relationship, the perfect job, the perfect life…
We create perfect brands to attract “the right” audience.
We seek “the perfect client”.

We always (want to) have a perfect answer.

Can you see a pattern? What are we trying to manipulate?

Are we over-achieving life?

What if we responded to life instead of trying to control it?
What if we valued our unique abilities over perfection?
What if we served more than just ourselves?
What if we cooperated with (our own) nature instead of trying to dominate it?

And YES, I’m asking questions without having an answer.

 
by Uli on Rough Diamonds

What if?

What if things go right?
What if everything does fall into place?
What if you do live up to your values?
What if you live happily ever after?
What if?
What if you discover joy and happiness within yourself?
What if there is a tomorrow that is slightly better than today?
What if you grow beyond what you thought is possible?
What if you free yourself from doubt?
What if?
What if you transform your fear into action?
What if nothing was lost anyways?
What if you liberate your decisions from the outcome?
What if you live your life to the fullest?

 
by Uli on Rough Diamonds, Writing Experiment

Divine Intervention

There is something moving inward – and outwardly.

The divine intervention.

I’m the vessel, the means of transformation.

More than anything I’m here to respond.

I’m not in charge. I do not lead. I am the direction.

On the verge, I am that tool.

I am the armour. There is no need to arm myself.