What if things go right?
What if everything does fall into place?
What if you do live up to your values?
What if you live happily ever after?
What if?
What if you discover joy and happiness within yourself?
What if there is a tomorrow that is slightly better than today?
What if you grow beyond what you thought is possible?
What if you free yourself from doubt?
What if?
What if you transform your fear into action?
What if nothing was lost anyways?
What if you liberate your decisions from the outcome?
What if you live your life to the fullest?
Transformation
Divine Intervention
There is something moving inward – and outwardly.
The divine intervention.
I’m the vessel, the means of transformation.
More than anything I’m here to respond.
I’m not in charge. I do not lead. I am the direction.
On the verge, I am that tool.
I am the armour. There is no need to arm myself.
Who Are You Without Your Mistakes?
Who are you without your mistakes? This is a question I kept pondering for a while now – probably for years.
Are you you? Without mistakes?
Are you fulfilling your “dharma” – without mistakes?
“In ‘doing’, there are always mistakes.”
This is what Swami Rakesh, my philosophy teacher at the 200 hours yoga teacher training I have just finished told me in a private consultation.
This implies: If we are not making any mistakes, are we doing?
I repeat, because it is so fundamental: Who are you without your mistakes?
You might walk, but do you walk in your own shoes?
You might do, but do you do you?
Or are you avoiding the thing you want to do, because you are avoiding mistakes?
Another perspective:
Do you learn without mistakes?
Of course not!
Perfection is not the path. It can’t be…. Why? Because we are here to learn.
The path is paved with mistakes. Detours. Ups and downs.
This is how we see.
This is how we dis-cover the things that are being hidden from us.
How will you be able to see the whole picture if you only look at what you want to see?
How do you feel fully if you avoid feeling the whole spectrum?
How do you find comfort in this life if you only walk on the bright side?
This is not it!
I know you know it!
Darkness is an aspect of the light. Without dark, there is no light.
This is more fundamental to understand than I could ever imagine… And yet, I’m scratching the surface…..
Let it be Hard
“I want it to be easy!” – I’m punching my pillow.
“Let it be hard!” – An internal voice releases my vigor.
Recently I’ve made some tough decisions. And for a moment I fell for the panic, the doubt and the despair…
Until I remembered:
In order to live an exceptional life we get to make exceptional decisions. Decisions no one has ever made before, because no one has ever walked in our shoes…
Decisions that move our life path away from the “crowd”.
It is tough. It brings up fears of rejection, of loss or of poverty.
But you know what?
It’s part of the game!
This is what unleashes the wild self within!
This is what strengthens our resolve!
I want to encourage you:
DO the step you are so scared of but you kept pondering for years.
MOVE where destiny is calling you.
YOU know it. No one else.
No fortune teller can tell you what to do.
Only you are in charge.
And this is not a top-to-bottom advice of some sort.
I encourage myself too with a livin’ prayer. 😉
It’s easy to talk about it.
It is freakin’ hard to WALK it!!
The path no one has walked before.
Your path.
It’s easy to learn a lot of things but actually putting them into action: this is the hard part! Yes. It is hard and it is beautiful.
It’s, without a doubt, the most satisfying thing in the world.
Focus
Focus.
Dive deeper.
Quench the thirst.
Extract the essence.
Learning Forward
Say YES to your unfulfillment.
OPEN yourself up.
LEARN forward.
Beacon of Change
Be a symbol for change.
Be a beacon of transformation.
Be an example.
Reversed Resolutions
I’m standing on Donnersbergerbrücke.
It’s the evening haze of a regular weekday in Munich and it dawns on me that I am EXACTLY where I am supposed to be.
I am not rushing to catch the bus I’m supposed to take.
The sun is painting its last colors on the sky.
I don’t remember the last time I was standing on this bridge.
But what I know is: It is not the same person standing here.
I have changed.
Something inside of me has changed fundamentally.
I felt strangely at home.
At this moment I realize that my shadow is comforting me.
It is my home.
“Just come as you are,” they say.
Okay, here I am.
All of a sudden it is there.
I under-stand.
I take pride in my path.
I own my story.
A rush of gratitude fills my eyes….
I grew from the inside and for the first time I really feel that.
I evolved – FROM the inside.
I have done the work. And now I am standing here.
“What’s next?,” my busy mind wants to ask.
Again, I gaze towards the setting sun….
“What if instead of moving forward, i’d move backwards?,” my busy mind itself countered with an open question.
I can’t sow endless seeds.
Now is the moment that I finally understand that rest is AS important as progress.
Digesting what is instead of preparing a new meal.
Clearing the debris instead of building anew.
Integrating what happened instead of initiating something else.
I can’t sow endless seeds, no, but I can praise the garden that is growing inside of me, in front of me, around me…
I don’t know how I could not get it earlier, but it does not matter.
On a random day, in stillness, I recovered the beauty of my life.
…
For too long I witnessed it within myself and in others…
We are pushing so hard to move forward. We are aiming for one dimensional progress. The thing is that progress is not one dimensional.
It’s expansive.
It’s round and whole.
It’s the yin and the yang. The animation and the integration are both equally important.
Growth is the integration of what is.
Growth is not only about harvesting the fruits, it’s about ploughing the land, fertilizing the dirt, and preparing for the upcoming season…
Personal growth is the care-taking of our internal motherland….
In some years maybe the harvest is not what we expected it to be. It is not as lush, as fruitful, or as delicious.
Some years we can only use it for compost. To fertilize the new ground in front of us.
Here we go 2023.
It’s the reversed resolutions…
Grinding Through Transformation
What the hell. THAT’S the time we have been anticipating. Change is here. Right at our fingertips.
It is UP TO US to make the most of it.
Since the beginning of the year there is a post on “reversed resolutions” that I am wanting to share, but I am never quite there. Haha. It’s coming! I promise.
SO. What IS happening right now?
Honestly, these times are such an up and down! I feel like I am swirling through the energies.
One moment I am boldly visualizing the future of humanity. The next moment I am cocooned in my old belief patterns – desperately trying to get rid of them…
This morning I understood something. And this is what makes me ‘hammer’ the keyboard now and again…
‘Do the things you want to do. You will automatically GET BETTER at whatever you are doing.’
And there is more to that: We learn from everything. Every experience. Every “mis-aligned” choice. Every shitty job. Every “bad boss” or bossy girlfriend (I have no idea who needs to hear this, but who am I to decide;)
We learn. We progress – from one point to another. (I am consciously choosing this definition of progress. Progress is NOT A STRAIGHT LINE. And I believe that this is even more crucial to understand than ever before – at least since I was born).
We always progress. We always transfrom.
What makes this so significant? Sometimes I become soooooo impatient – with myself, my writing, the world – even with my friends.
There. Must. Be. Something. Moving. OMG. Hahahaha. I was soooo obsessed with continuous progress that I forgot to ARRIVE….
The difference from five years ago is: By now I know what to do when I am in a state of black and white thinking or plain ‘denial’…. I go for a walk, I dance or I roll out the yoga matt and MOVE – as simple as that….
Yesterday was one of those moments.
Self-doubt caused a nagging pain in my abdominals.
My thoughts were literally choking me.
I WALKED. I walked fast across the park nearby.
All of a sudden there was this tiny voice or should I say sensation in my chest area.
It said: “You are not alone.” (‘aaahaa….’ I sighed.)
Silently I shouted to the sky: “LORD GIVE ME A SIGN”
When I turned my gaze I saw two rabbits about three meters away from me jumping happily into the sunset….
In awe and completely motionless I could feel my heart filling up with gratitude.
There was lightness – a deep knowing that the path is always there. I AM NOT ALONE IN THIS.
What do I want to say with this post? KEEP trusting. Keep grinding through transformation. We are in this together and there is always light to be discovered.
Breaking Ground
When every day is groundbreaking, what’s next?